How Do You Even Know Me

To be an insecure person is unhealthy.
To be totally quiet all the time, and too shy... Is unhealthy.
To sit around and do nothing all day, is unhealthy.
To be alone, and to have chosen that path, is unhealthy.
To dwell on the past so much, is unhealthy.
To hold everything inside of me, is unhealthy.
To lie, or to just speak my mind whenever I please.... is unhealthy.

To be the person I am.....
Is unhealthy.

So why do people bother with me?
How do you even know a person like me?
Why do you stick around?

What, do you think you can change me?
Only I can change myself, and for 20 years,.. well if I really wanted to change, I would have done so by now,
wouldnt you think?

Maybe... maybe I do sorta want to change.
Is that why your here?
Is that the only reason though?
That you feel sorry for me? Dont. I dont need your pity.

I need a real person; a person with flaws.
But I dont need another me.

So really, why are you sticking around?
Wouldnt you rather know someone more fun?
Someone who has better emotions that I cant even provide in a week?
Someone who can make you happy, and proud, sad, and mad..
Someone not like me; more adventurous, cute and cheerful...
Someone not like me.


Could you help me change?
So maybe you could like me more...