Cold Water

I sat here waiting, and waiting. I longed to see the boy of my dreams, and longed to be with him. I know it was all just a joke; a trick. "If you really do love me, and will wait for me, you'll see what'll happen"

Of course, I have always loved him, but if he loves another, than he doesn't love me, so whats the point in waiting for him if he doesn't love me now? Am I really a fool? I suppose I am.

And so I told the boy, the one who really wants to save me, to wake me up. Make me open my eyes. I left him a little note:
'I left that cold glass of water on the table.
Now please wake me up.'

But if I know my own stupidity,
And if I realize what Im doing wrong...
Than how am I asleep?

I want to meet the prince

And I hope I do at the airport <3

this is funny

You, and your face is funny.
And this is a love story... guess thats just gay.
this is my hate story,... a story of some stupid psycho freak.
This is me...
deal with it, go away, and leave me alone.
This is my 'cry for help'

I honestly hope all you fucking bitches, hoes, sluts, fakes, and liars die.
:] I really do.

However, I wish my bitchy, lying mother was still alive, cause I miss her.

Where oh where can you be?

She said she wanted to get high,
He took her to the tallest hill in town.
She said that she wanted to stay up all night and drink,
He gave her a twelve-pack of caffeinated Pepsi and said, “Drink up.”
She said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face,
He gave her a water gun, put her finger on the trigger, aimed it at her face and helped her pull the trigger.
She said that she wanted to cut herself,
He took a Polaroid picture of her, handed it to her along with scissors, and had her cut it up.
She said she wanted to cry herself to sleep,
He had her watch a sad, romantic movie before bed.
She said that she wanted to be alone,
He gave her a name tag that said, “My name is: Alone.”
She said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her always,
He asked if he wasn’t.

Master Mind

No no no! go away! What are you doing here? I thought you left! Get out get out!

Never come back! What is she doing? She lied to me! She said she was trying to help me. It was just a trick all along! I knew her plan, I saw it coming. The two of them played along. And now you’re the one telling me that Im the one who went wrong?

Get out, leave, go away! I don’t want to see your face, I don’t want to hear your voice; you made me cry, you made me crash, Im still sitting here in this recovery room. Don’t you see what your doing? Stop it! Don’t say it! Your just messing with my mind.

I cant take it anymore, you better turn around boy, before I start stabbing your heart too. Im not afraid of you, and I can take your chick down, so leave before I end up in jail. I’ll do it, I’ll do it, I swear I swear.

I know your tricks, I know your games, so just stop, its just a waste anyways. I hear your lies, so please just stop. Don’t say it, don’t say it. I can hear you guys whispering,.. Whisper:
“3,… 2,… 1,… Lets Break This Girl’s Heart”

You Never Left

I did all the tricks in the book,
Did it once, and did it twice.
I did it again, just to make sure it worked.
I tried and I tried, just to get you out of my life.

I seemed to have managed,
put away your things, locked them in a box.
I stopped playing the tapes, and forgot the memories.

You seemed to have done the same,
Pushed me out of your life like it was nothing..
Like nothing had ever been there.

I forgot about you after time, and moved on.
I finally found happiness..
Finally found love once again;

Than you just stepped right back in, just to mess with my mind;
I can see your games, and I can hear your words.
I will not fall for them, I will not fall.

I tried to tell you,.. Your evil plan was never going to work.
You were already out of my life,
And no matter how much I tried to convince you,
I found that I couldn't even convince myself.

I read every trick in the book,
read it once, read it twice.
But the book was too boring for me to actually follow along,
and after a while, I had forgotten where I had even placed it.

I put your things away, and locked them in a box,
But I kept the key, and kept the box next to my bed;
I put away the tapes, and forgot those memories,
But I wrote a book, and kept the other memories.

I found others, and found love,
but they never lasted. They were as short as I could make it.
Never true, and all I could think of when I was with them, was you.

I try to say you left my life...
But you were never really gone.

Hirstory

Am I falling for yet, another fake? Some boy who just wants attention? I can tell hes looking for something, but I can see things, I can see what he tells the others, they are just the same, but more meaningful I think...

Am I just another girl, nothing too special? Maybe Im just seeing what I want to see, as always. My mind is expecting for everything to go wrong; I need to stop creating this world for myself.
When will I finally find something true?

I hope this is all just a mind trick, and that he is actually something real... something I can actually one day relate with.

Dust

I remember when I was younger, and I’d sit in the living room, where the sun would shine though the windows. And when the sun would hit just right, you could see them floating around.

My eyes would follow the little dust speckles like little fairies, and Id sit there with my mom, and our hands would reach out as if we could actually catch the mystical creatures,…

But of course, just like everything else, they were never really there.