Forever and Never

So I will always love my ex Ronnie, even if we havnt dated for a long ass time, but hes the only one who has made me as happy as I was.... We never argued, we always got along, but then again I acted like a slave to him... everything he ever wanted, I'd always do.... for the most part. Dont ask why, thats just how it was. We always spent so much time with each other. Its a long story really, but once upon a time, he was dating a girl, and he was cheating on her with me, in fact, it was always like that.... apparently I was the only gf he actually never 'really' cheated on. Well he said he hadnt, but I cant really believe that. lol

Anyways, he says he still in love with me, so much, to the point that he didnt know if he should leave to AZ to live with his new gf, that he met online... He kept saying that I should have came back sooner [even though he was the one who really left me actually] but he ment coming back from Colorado.

He asked his new gf if I could be part of the relationship! He called her, and asked if they could have a 3 way relationship. Yes, he actually asked her! And yes,... she started crying =/

But the other night, we thought it was going to be the last night we get to see each other... He kept holding me tight, not wanting me to leave, kept saying 'I dont want this to be the last night' lol I also could tell he wanted sex by the way he grinds his teeth... it was about 9:30... and my grandparents lock the door around that time, and we were right in front of the house. He didnt want me to go in, kept going down to his knees begging me not to leave him.... He was unstable, and didnt know what to do. He just wanted me there.... he didnt want it to be the last night. Ronnie is deff NOT the guy you see, EVER begging...

He must have went down to the ground about 4 times.... But I had to go in. I loved him with all my heart, but my grandpa would have gotten really angry if I never came back home. And when I told Ronnie I really needed to go inside.... I looked up at him, and tears started falling. I didnt know what to do, or what to say.... Ronnie doesnt cry. Especially not in front of people. He may have cried once in front of me when I was moving to Colorado.... and he was with me early morning, as we waiting for my grandparents to pick me up, to take me to the airport. I can remember that day very clearly..... We kissed, and I started to cry.... and right as I did, it started to rain....

Ronnie's phone will be shut off today,... his gf probably will be watching him as he gets online after asking if I could be in the relationship, he doesnt get online that often anyways.... he blocked me from myspace last time we had drama.... and he hasnt been online for almost a month. I still have him on VF but he hasnt been on that for over a month.... He leaves on the 6th.... This saturday... Im sure I'll never hear from him again... But all his friends say he'll be crawling back in 4 months... I hope they are right. I dont see how Ronnie could leave his sister, and his best friend for some girl he met online.

I love him, and always will....

that was March 1st. His birthday was feb 28th. March 2nd was the last time I saw him. He leaves to AZ march 6th to go live with his new gf